Monday, April 25, 2011

Gandhi

One thing i've been noticing about myself lately is...I keep forgetting to let things go. just recently ive noticed how much of a problem this is for me. for whatever reason, I cant find a way to let things go. I cant move on from it. I cant forget what was said to me, or how people treated me, or how I treated them, or what I may have said to them that might have completely crushed them. Its like my conscious is super sensitive in that area. Im constantly worrying about things and it drives me crazy. I worry about things that shouldnt even matter. That dont matter. Things that Cant ever be taken back or changed. you cant change whats already happened. I dwell on the past. The only thing that gets me back to my right state of mind is when I get thinking about what other problems people have. which is probably terrible but I do it anyways. I could be struggling with something far more worse than this. I tell myself that nobody is perfect, and nobody will ever be perfect. Every single person has their own struggles...When will we own ourselves completely? When will we ever be perfect and not struggle with anything? never. nobody ever completely figures themselves out. Thats just something I need to remember. everyones always going to have their struggles, and trials. we will find ways to eventually get over them, but soon another bump in the road will come. tonight is not the last time I'll see the light. Thats just life for ya... theres no way of ever getting around it. so....enjoy the ride!